Sunday, January 31, 2010

New chapter to my book of life/ My Journey!

I'm going to be making a progressive time line of my life so I as well as anyone following me can see for them selves my transformation as its happening. Its going to be tittled My Journey, and the 1st chapter is the thread called "there's hope for all/My journey" this is the sequel.

Flashback- After all that has happened I have aquired a rock solid foundation composed of a very strong belief system, as well as steel determination. I have made abit of a name for my self in Jersey but my game is still very weak.

1 year ago- I choose a date of departure and embark on my Journey to DC. Although I have a very strong foundation, I'm very ignorant of the world around me. I bring my room mate from Jersey. We're all we have. He is great at finding resources, and I'm a good leader. I have a very positive outlook on life but still have yet to live it.

Feb 2009- We're struggling to since our new setting is totally unknown. I celebrate my 1st birthday away from family. Room mate and I have a very different mindset and start fighting Its a shitty birthday. As time passes it gets harder and harder to make ends meet. the only social interactions I have are with coworkers. they're the only social circle I have. They're all very attracted to me but unfortunately thats as far as I can get. I notice that chicks around me such as my neighbors, co workers etc. are constantly hitting on me but I lost touch with the game I thought I had. I lost faith in all the gurus, and all these methods out there. My number 1 priority coming here was to learn game and fix my social life, but its easy to fall in the daily routine and pushing my self gets harder and harder. Specially since I have to push both my self and my room mate.

July 2009/Self discovery- Thanks to my Room mate I get to meet some very powerful people, and because of our struggles and conflict. I'm finding out things about me that I had no clue even existed. I'm working as a promoter. I'm really getting exposed to many people but my social skillset is still very horrible. I try to get the only person I can truly trust here, my room mate to go out, and do drills with me. I know this is the perfect spot to learn game. He refuses. We continue fighting and it gets worse and worse.

September 2009/Self mastery- My room mate and I have fought so much we don't even talk anymore. Finally all the unsettled scores from our past come to life. It turns out hes always admired me but on the same token hated me due to envy. He's been disloyal and has done everything in his power to slow me down and stop me. I explode, he admits to everything and asks me for forgiveness. I have done nothing but help this guy even though hes been so ungreatful so forgiving him is kinda hard but I still do. We try to forget all that has happened but there's irreparable damage. I'm pretty much alone and so is he. Really finding out my weaknesses and strengths and learning how to use my revealed abilities to my advantage.

October 2009/Vicious unleashed- My room mate is too weak to handle living on his own so he moves back to his moms house. Its been almost 9 months and although I've learned alot I still haven't even started the missions I set out to achieve. I try to gather will power but its very very hard without someone around. Its time I start. I open my old files about game etc, and remember the forums. I go on looking for wings. Some dude posts about a lair website in DC. This could be the 1st time all the resources have aligned them selves, the environment, the people, and the system. I join the Lair and quickly become involved. So far I have ok fundamentals, balls, and certain talents I've discovered on this journey but 0 game. I'm as big a chode as they come. I decide to toss all out the window and work on each aspect of my game.

November 2009/Suicide crew campaigne- I meet up with Superman my very 1st wing ever. My social innexperience quickly shows, and its clear I have WAYs to go, but on the sane token, all that power thats gone unrecognized, unused, and unappreciated by the low value people I've been mingling in Jersey is really starting to pay off. 1st by the Promoter team I joined where i quickly became the operations manager, as the right hand man of the leader, barking orders to the promoter team. And now by the comunity of PUAs. I'm used to fighting very hard for stuff and I quickly start getting attention from the Forum members. I meet a bunch of very determined ballsy guys, and form whats known as the Suicide crew. This crew turns out to be exceptionally gifted and our progress begins to sky rocket. I'm still struggling moneywise but I'm really starting to work on social interactions.

To this date- The Sucide crew is quickly rising to the top, and I've been made Field leader. My inner self is consistently making it self known to me in different ways. I plan to rise to the top and this is the perfect time to do it.

Progression ladder

October 2009- I have a very hard time opening directly and when I do I get blown out.

November 2009- Through Suicide missions I've overcomed this step but getting girls to be receptive is almost impossible to me, and when they are I'm terrified of touching them

December 2009- I finally learned how to get girls to be receptive but the interactions die very quickly. I can't hook for shit, my kino is much better, I can sometimes get makeouts

To this date- I'm just starting to be able to consistently hook sets but I still chode a bit, and Need to work on more technical stuff.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

FR 52 Loneliness!

Very short FR. I've been in a really shitty mood and very antisocial. I'm tired of people, everything around me is anoying me for no reason. My co-workers try to have conversations, and joke with me. I don't feel like talking so I act really boring on purpose so they'll leave me alone, My managers get on my nerves and my patience is very short fused with customers. This rarely happens since I'm usually a very stable, happy guy. but today was just not my day. I'm sarcastic, and a smart ass. As it is to be expected my customers start giving me shit and it just snowballs.

Against all odds- So it has been about a week and a half that I haven't gone out to game since I've been on that retarded job hunt. It was almost 12 and I'm just finished with work. My Crew is split, and I have multiple hang out offers, but I know I have to go solo since its been a big sticking point of mine. I put on my headphones and I'm standing in line of lucky bar while the music is blasting in my ears. I watch people interact but can't hear what they're saying. This allows me to truly analyze what they're REALLy saying. I come in the place distracted and completely unwilling. AA skyrockets. Usually what people tend to do when they're solo is pull out their cell phone and pretent they're texting. I choose not to since its a big urge of mine. I'm fighting the lack of energy, fear, anger, and lack of social proof.

Sting- My original goal was to hook 5 sets for at least 3 mins each. But in my state, and with the lack of targets(big sousage fest) I realize this goal seems unatainable today. also my AA is rudiculously high. I realize I have huge wing dependance so I shift my focus back from conversations, to Social fear, and decide to shoot for 10 direct approaches. I never usually need alcohol but today it would be extremely helpful. I spot a very hot 2set(probably the hottest in the club) grab their shoulders and say Hey! one of them starts laughing(I think its because they've been hit on so much that night) I say Yeha I know you've probably been hit on like a 100 thousand times today(forcing my self to smile since I really don't feel like talking) HB acts receptive but not too interested and says "you need a drink. Don't even talk to me till you get a drink." in a playful way yet basically telling me my energy level is very low. I Plow, she keeps insisting I get a drink so I can losen up. I know thats not an option so I eject and move on. I chode for a while longer. To keep it short basically every approach was a struggle to even open but in the end I managed to open 11 sets including some groups. I was only able to hook 1 and I got shut down more times than usual. I felt like I was back in the very beggining but I learned some very good lessons

True winging- While I was choding I was observing every interaction, and I saw how 2 dudes opened these chicks and started dancing with them. When 1 of the chicks was going to eject, the other dude would dance with her friend right in front of her. This engrained in her mind that her friend was having fun and she was gonna be left out so she would start dancing more vigorously again. they did a number of other things together and Eventually bounced them out of there. Impressive display of skills and botherhood.


Venue influence- Depending on the area of the venue, game varies. for example by the dance floor the most effective way to game is to caveman chicks, and heavily kino them followed by a bounce. While by the bar area, too much kino can screw up the set, and conversational skills are much more important. This is a good time to iso to a seated area. This is obvious but if you're not aware of your surroundings you can get confused.

Looks vs Vibe- This night I looked especially good since I took a while getting ready and got heavily hit on during the day, but my energy was crap and I couldn't do crap whatsoever. A strong energy will always beat looks no matter what.

Sticking points
-Gotta watch my accent. sometimes when the music is loud and I don't speak clearly I sound like I'm drunk.
-Social fear duriing solo missions.
-still conversations

Thursday, January 28, 2010

There's hope for all/ My journey!

I write this post for a certain group of people. Let me start by saying I'm far from reaching my destination, and I consider my self a newbie. Every so often I hear people say, we'll I'm not good looking, or I have a disadvantege because of.... this post is to you guys.

transformation process

My childhood- due to negative teachings, and little to no direct family in my childhood(most of them left), combined with low social value due extreme financial difficulties(to the point where I live in a tent, and hunger strikes everyday), in a country where social differences are enough for people to verbally, physically, and morally abuse you with no fault of your own. kids can't control logistics.

Highschool- Used to resolving issues through violence and hate, just arrived to this country, social rules are unknown due to the differences in countries, combined with a childhood of complete isolation, and an endless list of hardcore limiting beliefs, and bad habbits. needless to say, I went through highschool at the bottom of the social foodchain(virgin) only 1 girlfriend(dissabled unattractive girl) at almost the end of my highschool life. very few friends

5 years ago- complete outcast, socially awkward, people hate me, my future looks none existant, suicidal thoughts, complete lack of knowledge of any subject regarding this country. If you guys have seen pink floyds movie, brick in the wall, thats kinda how my life was(but without the fame)

4 years ago- I meet a guy whose as close to a rockstart as anything I've seen, throws concerts, gets laid, etc. we become best friends, he begins to help me. for the 1st time in my life I start seeing girls even acknowlege me(even though they do it for him) a small ray of hope.

3 years ago- Because of the limiting belief build up combined with an entire life of isolation, I stupidly believe that nothing can change or be learned, people are simply born lucky or destined to rott in hell.
After a very very humiliating defeat and treason by my best friend(not the rockstar guy, but my highschool best friend)(due to a girl. one of the very 1st few girls to ever show interest in me), my frustration, rage, and and pride, finally serve a good purpose.
her last words to me- You're a loser.
Exhausted of hearing this fucking word(I still hate it) I decide to prove to my self I'm not a loser.

Still 3 years ago(How I built my persistance)- after seeing my rockstar friend's lifestyle, and going through that last humiliation, I start searching desperately for answers to my questions. with alot of willpower, I cut all connections to nevative people(my rockstar friend goes away at this time too. I'm pretty much alone again) I start my 1st cologne bussiness, I do good, and put up my 1st store. The flood takes it away. I meet the very 1st woman I wouldn't mind sharing the rest of my life with. due to lack of game, and her family taking her away from me, I lose her. I cry and become depressive again. I go in a destructive pattern, and start getting wasted everyday, and destroying public property. but after losing her, my anger, and frustration become such, that they become a fuel strong enough to completely dominate my life to this day

2.5 years ago(I discover the comunity!!!!)
after searching and reading self help books, I find yahoo answers, and start asking people why women don't like me, and why was I born this way. braddock finds his way to my question, and sends me a reply, with a double your dating link, and some brief advice. I become obsesed with it. and then I find out about mystery and the game etc. I have no friends and live in a small town. but my hunger for liberation, and increasing determination completely take over my mind and body.

Rock solid surge of power- I devote my 110% to my transformation project, begin to study all kinds of materials, practice all kinds of excercises, work on tons of issues I have to improve on. After becoming a keyboard jockey, I decide to go away and work on my fundamentals

To this date- Having that stain in my past and the overwhelming fear that I won't make it in life, leads me to having an obsession to achieve not only standard results, but an extremely successful lifestyle. Because of all this lifetime of failure, My determination becomes solid as steel, and my faith indistructible. I set up another store, and it becomes somewhat successful. becoming addicted to my struggle, I decide that I have it too easy in jersey and decide to come to DC and make a fresh start.

thats a pretty undetailed version of my story, If I wrotte in details, I could writte entire books.

overall lessons/beliefs

Determination completely wipes out all logistics and unfavorable circumstances

excuses are for the weak.

anything is learnable, no matter what it is. anything can be overcomed(cept for death)

there are no shortcuts, or free passes for anything lasting and worthwhile.

You really can't fool anyone but your self, Integrity is lifes most respected virtue

life is like a huge store, you can have absolutely anything as long as you're willing to pay the price. I can go on forever. but This thread as all ready super long. This is 1 of the very 1st times I actually speak about this. reason is, this has been hunting me my whole life, and now iis my time for complete transparency and freedom. fuck judgements. I don't care anymore.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Suicide crew members profiles!

Meeting- So The suicide crew decided to hold a meeting in order to start applying the system. There were some disputes and dissagreements, thanks to this we really got to know our selve on a deeper level. The purpose of the meeting was to identify everyone's strengths and weaknesses, and keep track of our progress, as well as making our sarges much more effective, While holding each other more accountable

Personality profile- this profile is based on 3 fundamental stages

Value- This is a list of traits of abilities that make the particular member useful to the suicide crew

Qualities- this is their level of game, and particual skillset in field

Sticking points- This involves their strongest sticking points in field, as well as their negative behavior patters which prevent them from progressing

Southern style

Resources- Has weels, a nice place, money, etc
Friendliest vibe- by far the most likeable suicide member
Theory- Has a mental guide as far as game goes
Consistency- Consistently goes out no matter how he feels
good motivator- consistently puts people in good state
Connector- amazing ability to draw. and introduce people to the crew
Loves and can connect with people

Hooks sets very well
Very high energy when in state
Creates massive attraction

Sticking points
AA- member with the Highest Social fear
Ejects early- hates getting shut down, prematurely ends sets
Not accountable- Loses focus and tends to give up when in despair
Winging- Very little winging experience
Fast tonality- Tends to speak really fast when nervous
Lack of motivation- again, gives up when his state is down
Lack of self belief- Needs to work on his inner game


Connector- Again, knows many capeable people, consistently introduces you to high value individuals

Good tour guide- Probably the best source to go to for setting advice.

Very active forum member- tends to be the face of suicide crew and 1 of the best known members

Plows well- Knows how to lead a conversation
Iso- very good at iso
Bounce- consistently bounces target to different locations
Text game- consistent dates through texting

Sticking points
Social fear, AA- Worries too much about what people think
Voice tonality- Consistently repeats him self, sounds insecure
Kino- Very high sexual fear, rarely kinoes sexually
Energy-Too serious, has low energy at times
Nervous body language
Accountability- Refuses to listen to advice, refuses to be pushed at times, doesn't like to be accountable for much.

Live forever

Most Experienced- Huge learning potential with his due to his vast field experience

Knows good sarging places- Knows the difference between venues and can adapt well to them

Theory- His vast theory knowledge gives the entire crew a road map

Consistency- 1 of the most consistent members when it comes to sarging

Coaching- Very good at finding sticking points and giving advice

Tonality- very overpowering tonality
Kino- consistent makeouts, very comfortable kinoing
Energy-very magnetic energy that draws people to him
Dominance- Very strong personality, and commanding.
Iso- consistently isos with no problem.

Sticking points
State fluctuations/emotions- is very unstable, and loses composure quickly, makes many emotionally based decitions.

Drinking reliance- very alcohol dependant, has high AA when sober.

Bouncing- rarely bounces chicks to places.

Closing- Doesn't push for the close, and rarely gets it.

Sober day AA- His daygame AA is very high, and has little daygame experience al together.


Funny- funniest member
Resources- weels, money, etc
Positive state- by far most positive suicide crew member
Maturity- most mature member, and very stable, great composure
Good motivator-consistently motivates members
Follow instructions well- keen, and dedicated when in comes to instructions

Consistent opening- This man doesn't know what AA means

Hooking sets- almost always hooks sets, and is very good at creating attraction

Conversations- never runs out of stuff to say, creates very interesting conversations

Sticking points
Iso- Almost never Isos girls
Overall Sexual escalation- big sexual fear, almost never sexually touches targets, of makes sexual comments.

Friend zone- His conversations usually lead to being friendly more then a pick up

Dominance- is not very commanding, has a hard time keeping the frame

No theory knowledge- needs to learn a little game theory to have
somewhat of a road map, and comunicate with other comunity members

Lack of participation- rarely posts on the forums, doesn't keep track of progress, doesn't get involved with people

Vicious wildfire

Leadership- Best leadership skills, and experience, true leader qualities

Self discipline- By far the most self diciplined crew member, great ability to focus on task, and goals, very onganized.

Motivator- great motivator due to his deep understading of people, and by example.

Good learner- very good at applying teachings, and truly internalizing instructions.

Teacher- Due to his vast life experience he is able to articulate, leassons well, and pass them on to others, has the ability to understand his students.

Consistency- Consistently goes and is constantly improving

Consistent opener- probably the most consistent crew member
Energy- very high energy
Balls- ballsiest crew member, great ability to overcome fears.
Day game experience- Most experienced day game member
Number closing- consistent solid number closes

Sticking points
Lack of self belief- Doesn't believe in his ability to game, and this projects in field

Style- needs to improve his style, such as clothing, and hairstyle, etc.

Sexual escalation- Needs to improve his way to escalate, and rarely escalates

Tonality- Very low volume, people hava a hard time hearing.

Conversation- Is not able to hold a conversation very long, rather boring conversations

Set hooking- due to lack of conversations, and tonality has a very hard time hooking sets.

Lack of cultural awareness- Has a hard time relating to people due to lack of cultural awareness, such as current events, hollywood, pop culture, etc

Negative conversations- sometimes shifts conversations to negative subjects

Action plan- Now with these stats we decided to take an action plan, which I will post in a different FR due to lack of time. Have fun picking us appart

Sunday, January 24, 2010

FR 51 Teaching the raven how to fly!

I had been meaning to meet some of the guys that have been requesting to hang out but for some reason we haven't able to coordinate. The crew split up today I was actually looking forward to today cuz it meant that I was gonna either have to do solo(big sticking point of mine) or I was gonna get to meet some of the guys. Some people hit me up but I could only respond when I was out of work which was very late. Raven was the only one still available since everyone else had all ready done something. I was anxious to meet this guy and a little nervous.

First impressions- I finally met up with him. I'm not gay but this guy was supper good looking! I was like "damn thats cheating" I also noticed he was a very ballsy kid since he moved out here by him self just like I did, and is the type of guy that goes after his dreams. How ever I don't think he was aware of the tremendous potential he has. I was privileged to be assigned with the task of teaching Achillies how to weild a sword!

Teaching the Raven how to fly- We went inside the club. Raven was humble, shy, and just all around a good guy. This kid needed chaos in his life so I basically gave him a talk of our style of game, and how it worked. Everyones biggest obstacle in the begining is social preassure. I noticed that the advice from 99% of the gurus is useless in the beggining at least since we're so socially terrified. It makes you fear the rejection that much more. We started with a series of challenges. while he was giving me textbook challenges(which are useful btw) I was giving him social freedom challenges. At the begining just like every other guy I've met, he questioned it and didn't see the point of doing it. He got really nervous and asked me to perform.

The flight- I started with my usual head opener, and followed by just straight direct or retarded openers. My sets were hooking hard, and I controlled a couple of groups. he was amazed. He was also not used to sober game, so the 1st rule was straight up sober. He followed and began to apply suicide missions. His mind was blown away as to what was possible, and he realized the amazing potential he had. The looks advantage he had, combined with the balls and desire to improve also helped quite alot. We broke just about every social rule in the book and to great success.

Breakdown/victory- By the end of the night he had a bit of a breakdown. He felt extremely acomplished but at the same time, the Social preassure these suicide missions created, took a toll on him. I knew exactly what he was feeling because I felt many of those breakdowns when I had originally started the suicide missions. They kinda make you realize how shy you really are. and how long a road it is, but at the same time the speed at which you progress is amazing! As we retrieved our coats and he was feeling a little down, he opened a chick standing next to him. and with absolute honesty tells her hes shy and that he wants to meet people. The chick of course hooks, forces her number on him and starts kissing him. He had a huge feeling of acomplishment, and so did I. Knowing that I had the oportunity to pass something unto someone and watch it immediately completely shatter their weak reality and change their world for good. It was an undescribable feeling!

FR 50 The battlefield!

So as you know from the 1st part of this FR, we came up with an assesment list for each Suicide crew member and from there we gave each other challenges customized to our sticking points. I was all ready crapping my pants cuz I knew I couldn't slide with my typical suicide missions.

Challenge of the night

Southern style
Focus- AA destruction
challenge- Open 10+ sets completely sober

Live forever
Focus- Sober game AA destruction
Challenge- Open 10+ sets completely sober

Focus- Sexual escalation
Challenge- Can't leave until he gets a makeout

Vicious wildfire
Focus- Set hooking
challenge- Must hook 5+ sets for at least 3 minutes each

The Battlefield

Southern style- I'll let him detail better in his own FR but from what I saw, he was struggling alittlebit but his energy was killer, and so was his state. He was piling up the numbers although he seemed to be ejecting prematurely

Live forever- I could tell he was definetly having a hard time approaching due to his consistent asociation with state and alcohol, but after a few warmups his solid game created good reactions, a couple chicks panties were dropping, and his state was starting to pump.

Zafer- He was definetly having a hard time even approaching. The only time I ever saw Zafer state crashing was when he was completely new and it was his first night out. His state control is the best I've see. And today he was definetly out of state. I was surprised to see this happen.

Vicious wildfire- I have a very hard time hooking sets in night game. I was very very nervous. I knew hooking 5 sets for at least 3 minutes was going to be very tough. I've had quite a few state crashes in the past so now I'm able to recognize them, and prevent them. My state was about to crash and I knew it, so I went in. To my amazement, this focus gave me creativity and before I knew it I had hooked my first mixed 2set for about 10 minutes. Things were looking alittle brighter.

Final battle

Southern style- We switched venues and as the night went by, he slowed down and began to chode alittlebit, but after what seemed to be some pushing from his teamate Live forever he picked up again, and finished his challenge.

Live forever- It was aproximately 1am and Live forever had been the 1st one to finish. although I could tell it wasn't easy for him at all. I was begining to get nervous

Zafer- His state got worse and worse until he completely crashed. For the guys who have field experience know how hopelessly hard it is to recover from a state crash. It was time to cut our losses and bring out the sub challenge which I believe was to open 5 sets. Zafer Fought himseft until he completed his sub challenge. The crew celebrated and cheered

Vicious wildfire- I had managed to hook 2 sets in our previous venue local 16s But had not been able to do it in our new venue grand central. Normally my way of hooking sets and getting makeouts is through straight up dominant bodylanguage, and heavy kino, but I couldn't rely on my dancing opener or anything since I was focused on hooking sets through conversations. It was getting late, Live forever and Southern style were done, and I was beggining to despair, I hooked a couple of sets but for under 3 minutes. ugh. I found a girl leaning against a railing. opened her, she wasn't very receptive, but I kept plowing until she hooked(thank Goodness) I stopped another 2set and stuck with them until 1 hooked, we talked for a long time, and I genuinely liked this chick but I was so focused on compleeting this challenge that I had to move on. Unbelievably I was only 1 set away from victory. It took me forever but I talked to a chick leaning against a wall. I practically forced the conversation, and grabbed her hand and danced with her to buy me time, and after a while, she hooked too(What a relief!)

Suicide crew celebration- We cheered and celebrated our true return to the sceene. The system we created was a smashing success. We each faced our own demons and won this night. We looked at each other thinking about our potential with satisfaction. I'm sure the same thoughts were going through all our minds "I'm so lucky and blessed to have met these guys" I had learned some very big leassons today. I got lost in thought for the rest of the night.

-Doing these focused challenges got us each to a new level of game
-I finally learned how to hook sets through conversations

- I played it too safe alot of the times
- I choded alittle bit in the beggining

Revealed leassons

-your focus ultimatly determines your state, and altogether game. If its too high, you will get a state crash, If its not high enough, then you don't really respect it and throw it out the window.

-A way to keep a conversation interesting and fun is to embed little spikes such as playing guessing games, and exchanging opinions.

Revealed sticking points

-I tend to get desperate I'm going to run out of stuff to say, and start to ask random questions
-I overqualify my self when chick is all ready into me
-I don't qualify targets enough, and tend to give them too much reward when they jump my hoops

Thursday, January 21, 2010

FR 49 The return of chode mode!

Gonna keep this one very brief since I'm rushing

Mc faddens- I got out of work late and was tired. I hit up MCfaddens. Met up with Live forever, Southern style, and Sonic. all these guys did great. But as of lately I've been doing alittle better with conversations, and imediate attraction, how ever today for some reason I seemed to be back in square 1. My AA was kicking, And my conversation skills were less than perfect. I began opening very unenthusiastically. the 1st few didn't go well, then Southern style pushed me to approach a very attractive 2set. I went in. good response, of course they got turned off right after due to my lack of conversation skills. I approached some more but nothing noteworthy.

Operation creep out- Live forever challenged me to creep a set out. Since my AA was kinda high I thought it was a good idea, and I went up to a mixed 4set and used the only suicide crew opener that has a 100% Suicide rate. I mean not a single suicide crew member has been able to ever make it work. I call it the face opener. Went just as expected cept for 1 thing. after the chicks got creeped out, 1 of the dudes(drunk guy) slapped my hand, and I got PISSED!

Vicious(walking towards him, really pissed off tone)- Don't you ever, ever, fucking touch me again!
Chode(trying to look good but still pissing his panties)- Well you shouldn't be(I cut him off)
Vicious(really close to him)- No, don't ever fucking touch me again, I will punch you in the face!
HB- Calm down
Vicious- No fuck you, You're pissing me off

After that, this other dude tried to calm me down, and I did, Live forever as usual, supported me, and stood up for me. I relaized I probably shouldn't have gotten so pissed off, but anyway, lol It made good drama, and gave us something to talk about haha. I kept opening the rest of the night but nothing too noteworthy

Highlights(leassons learned will be in parenthesis like this)

2set HBs cockblocking battle- So I opened 2 cuties, it went well, and I started dancing with them, till I realized I had competition. there were 3 dudes, 1 was trying to DHV me, while the other 2 were trying to cockblock me and steal my target. After a while 1 of the dudes bodyblocked me. as you all know this is very effective so I knew I was in deep shit. I kept dancing and moved to the other side where I could reengage from the side. The dude saw me and tried to body block me again, but this time the chick saw me, and we made eye contact. It was time to pull the atomic bomb on him. I whipped out my camera, and grabbed the chicks hand, and asked the douchebag to take a picture of us. He had no choice but to be a tool and take pictures, but just as he was about to take the picture, her cockblocking friend came and pulled her away(Always be sure to bring a camera, its useful in many many ways)

Leassons learned
-its always good to observe sets to identify what type of person they are, this will tell you if they're the type of chicks you'll click with.
-Its always great to spike up conversations by using intrigue(credit Superman, its worked like a charm)
-Even in my weak days I finally found out how to get a chick to almost always respond to me with tonality but its hard to explain in text.
-after you start the conversation make sure you shift it to a more personal level and less general or you kill the sexual tension and it becomes just a friendly conversation.

Revealed sticking points-again lack of cultural knowledge
-I need to become more of a challenge

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


This is my initiation in whats going the be my personal diary in my social life. I'm greatful for the amazing experiences I've had in life! I named this blog Hero's Jurney because I am a hero, and in this blog I will keep record of my growth and the thrilling adventures I go through while in the chase of an undying dream!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

FR 48 Suicide crew vs PUA frame battle!

Setting- Local 16's
Wings- Zafer, Southern style, Live forever.
Mission- N/A
Focus- social intuition

I entered the venue, and found some guys I've been wanting to meet, such as Crazy Mike, Quick kill, and Magellan. I chatted with them for a while, and went to do my usual thing, but for some reason I wasn't hooking a single set. The place was packed, and I had a hard time focusing. I go to the downstair to try to regain focus.

Suicide crew vs Pua frame battle- It was hard to get wing assistance, or do the usual challenges, etc because it was extremely crowded. I guess it was time to roll solo. as I'm trying to shuffle my way through the crowd, I spot a guy giving another guy pick up instructions. he reeked of PUA. I was like, hmmm things are about to get interesting, I watch for a while, then move on. As I'm going up the stairs I spot 2 other guys, and 1 asks the other one, was she your target? I approach them
Vicious- So how long have you guys been in this?(friendly tone trying to get to know them)
PUA-(getting nervous with a sarcastic pissed off tone) What are you talking about?
Vicious-(thinking, damn are you seriously so ashamed of what you're doing) How long have you been into pick up(smiling pretty much letting him know hes being a chode by acting this way)
PUA-(shifty, and stuttery, with a really sarcastic tone trying to tool me)what are you talking about, dude you're so weird. (the dude turns to the other PUA both trying to tool me) did you hear this guy? what is he talking about(instead of leaving it alone, making a big deal)
Vicious-(smiling, pretty much giving them the its ok, I understand you're a tool look).........
PUA 2-(probably thought I was gonna call him out in front of everyone) So we still don't know what you're talking about. we thought you're were gonna say something funny, but you're not funny(weak attempt to get me to qualify my self)
Vicious-(giving them the I gave you the last chance to be open and make more pua friends) ummm(sarcastic tone) Actually that is pretty funny(implying that what they're doing is retarded and silly)

After that they stared at me for a while. I walk up the stairs and find Live forever, tooling 2 other PUAs. I tell him dude this place is crawing with puas. Live forever says, yea I just told this dude I'm a 3 toed cammel. We decided to bounce. It must have been a bootcamp

The tides turn- We bounce to grand central, And for some reason, my success increases exponentially. Chicks begin to open me left and right. the chicks I open are super receptive, and the rest of the night goes excellent. Souther style makes a rebirth and is back in full action.

Revealed sticking points-In social settings, after hanging out with chicks for a while, I start runing out of things to say and stuff to do, and start losing value, until interactions go stale.
-I sometimes don't know how to behave in big groups

Monday, January 18, 2010

FR 46 Insanity! (Day game)

Setting- Georgetown campus
Wings- Superman, Andras, Bruno
Mission- 15 approaches
Focus- Set hooking/ # closing

So I'm still rusty, but confident daygame wise. I'm going to the Proffessional pick up meet up, and I'm pumped. We meet up with andras and bruno. We make 2 teams, and sarge in different areas. Superman and I take the campus. and Andras and bruno take the local shops.

I start out with a moving hb with some big ass books. Its not like me to go indirect but W/e I give it a shot and tell her I'm interested in finances and checking out the schools(Its actually true btw)
HB- hmmm IDK, what type of business?
Vicious- Online bussiness, but they don't seem to have anything like that here, blah, blah
HB- hmmmm I don't believe there's a department for that blah, blah, blah
Vicious- I figured since you had the biggest books(playful tone, implying shes nerdy as hell)
HB- hahaha, yea they're my (insert proffession) books. I had to take them to class blah, blah
Vicious- Just don't hit anyone with those, you'll kill them.
Sha laughed, we chatted some more. I go in for the kill, she denies me, I move on. So I realized why people like indirect game. I thought it was just because most are big pussies, but in reality, the ability they have to create conversations, and hook sets is very good, how ever transitioning to showing interest is much tougher. Indirect are not my style I thought to my self but maybe I can find a way to somehow use their ability.

New weapon- preassure release!
My usual direct approaches After I go direct, in the beggining I used to get complete shutdowns, later I was able to get numbers, but very few times was I able to build a genuine conversation, because after the opening, there would be so much preassure on them, that it was impossible to have a normal conversation after that. even when they tried. So this time I went in for the kill as usual, but I quickly transition to something indirect

exe 1(normal direct)
Vicious- hey
HB- hi
Vicious- You're so freaking cute I had to come over and say hi
Massive preassure build up- as the HB is about to talk even if she likes me she can't even concentrate cuz its so awkward
HB- well thank you
Awkwardness- at this point, randomly talking about anything seems contrived, and the chick is looking for anyway to get away from me to release the awkward preassure(remember awkwardness is chick's kryptonite)

Exe 2(preassure release)
Vicious- Hey
HB- Hi
Vicious- You're so freaking cute, I had to come talk to you, but you look mean(funny facial expression)
Preassure release- the little extra line there with the facial expression all ready gets their mind away from my being put on the spot like that, yet they still know I'm making no secret about my intentions
HB- LOL I'm not mean, blah, blah, blah
Vicious- I'm actually scouting the area for schools, blah blah(Indirect approach concept)
Preassure release- Now the indirect completely ocupied their mind, and I can enjoy the benefits of the indirect, while at the same time I don't have to beat around the bush. at this point, going for the number is not awkward at all, and it also gives her a chance to like me even more by my stories and subcoms.

My set hooking thanks to this increased exponentially, and though I only got 1 # close, I definetly saw the massive improvement, and btw the number was from a chick who had a bf, and was trying so hard not to like me, and she couldn't resisit in the end.

Highlights(leassons learned will be in parenthesis like this)
HB9 indian chick- So the place gets super dark and approaching get creepier and creepier, but with my new weapon, chicks are still very receptive, I spot this chick all covered up(its cold outside) She looks like she might be ugly, but I can't see her well and there aren't that many targets so I go in. after I say hey, she looks at me, and is BEAUTIFUL! she catches me off guard, and I actually stutter alittlebit, but quickly gain my composure. She super hot but confident in my new weapon, I proceed, and she hooks hard. I walk with her for like 20 mins. I go in for the kill but she denies me. I can tell she wants me though. instead of pushing I eject(When chicks are very hot, even if they're into you alot of the time they still refuse because they don't wanna feel easy and defeated. I believe this is where witt combined with persistance completely shatters their frame. Had I not let her looks defeat my balls, I would have closed her)

asian hb8 cool chick- I mentioned how I liked her style, and used my same weapon. she hooked but before she did, she threw a curb ball to test me. hb "really, I didn't know my style was any different than any of the people here" Vicious "well, you have the assholish, yet cool vive, and it kinda goes well with the whole conservative look" she laughed and hooked hard after that. again this chick was so my type, and I was so attracted to her, that I ejected and didn't go for the kill. ugh! She cought me off guard, but since I genuinely liked her, and I know what type of chick I like, I was able to improv.(transparency, and honesty is by far the strongest form of game there is)

BF chick- Same deal. I went direct, then used preassure release, and didn't give her a chance to answer. she got attracted to me, and after a while I went for the kill. she said oh I have a boyfriend. Normally when they say this its bullshit, but I can tell she wasn't lying, and I could also tell she was definetly into me. I said, who cares, as friends or something. She said "it doesn't matter?" me "nah" HB "ok(smiles)"

FR 47 Suicide crew's counterparts, Faz, Djinn

So its my 1st time day gaming since the whole month of december and since my Jersey travels. I feel rusty and the anxietys building up. I'm about to give my big speech about the Suicide system. I meet up with Superman, and he happens to be with his 2 original wings(my predecesors) Faz, & Djinn. It didn't click right away until later I realized who these 2 dudes were. It turns out they happened to be our counter parts! except in different scenarios, and different time frames.

Vicious counterpart Faz- In suicide crew I seem to be the expert in day game, and my closing rate is rather good. it also happens to be where the suicide missions were born, and I'm known for my ability to act when the going gets tuff. as I got to know them better I recall Faz was the dude that completely burnt his rep. in his entire campus, and even got the cops on his ass for being so ballsy. I mean this guy is 1 of the few I even heard of really putting everything on the line for his dream! His main experience is day game, and from what I noticed has done tons of day Suicide missions, but just hasn't called them that. I had been anxious to meet such a dude. As soon as I got in the building, I spotted a hot 4 set of asian chicks, and my AA was kicking, but I was still determined to approach them. At the same time I see Faz walk up to this other seated 4set of caucasian hbs, and hook them for a while, with no hesitation whatsoever. I'm like WTF. I go and open my seated 4set of asian hbs, and hook them for a while. Our game styles seem to be rather similar, and so are our stories. Impressive! I see him open anything, with not a single sign of fear. and uses the craziest lines on chicks(wtf he was just way too similar) I go outside to talk on the phone and I open this cute chick standing next to me and I forgot if I number closed her or not. While on the meeting, he spots a cutie, leaves the meeting to go approach her(damn way, way too similar) after some more system discussion, I spot this cute asian chick walking. I leave the meeting to approach her. she happens to walk outside, and its dark as hell and its a little alley. she notices I'm behind her and gets creeped out since its so dark. I acknowlege this right away and tell her "I don't mean to be creepy but I had to come and talk to you"(this seemed counter intuitive, but I recall AFC adam talking about bringing shit up before it becomes an issue so I tried it and it totally worked.) She was very receptive, but I had a hard time comunicating with her after that since her english wasn't that good. I ejected. As we head back to the metro(usually my strongest game) I talk with faz. He opens this cute chick waiting on the metro which will arrive in 20 mins. hooks her the entire time, and walks in with her. I go and wait for my green line. Open this chick sitting down, and after alittle chit chat, close her as I'm arriving home. I don't think he got to know me well enough to realize what was going on, but I did, and it was a weirdly awesome experience!

Live forever counterpart Djinn- Live forever Happens to be the master at night game, his AA tends to hit him hard during daygame, but when it comes to night game, I've seen no equal to him. his kino is flawless, and so is his frame control. he consistently gets makeouts, and day 2s in night settings, and the last lays he's gotten have been through night game. I talked to Djinn but didn't really see him game, but I heard that he completely tared the night when they all went out(I was working so had to miss it) I also heard that Faz tared things up during day game that same day. Djinn seemed to also have a similar mindset to live forever, and so was his personality abit. I wasn't really there to see him with my own eyes, but I could see resemblances just from interacting with him in that Suicide meeting

Leassons learned
The game gives you experiences that people would never even dream off!
No one should ever bitch about things being too tough. theres always someone else doing the same or more than you are.


Sunday, January 17, 2010

FR 46 Insanity!

Location- ESL
Wings- Live forever, Weekend at bernie's, Wolf Howls
Mission- 3 off the hook challenges each. get shut down 10 times
Focus- Social intuition

Normally when Live forever's in the building, no one can beat him. he's just too freaking good, but this time I was fighting the larva version of him since he decided to do sober game, so I thought now I actually stand a chance, lets go whoop some Live forever butt!

Challenge face off- I decide to start out light and gave him the head opener. He hesitated since he had just arrived and couldn't depend on alcohol, but of course he did it, and as usual hooked hard(failed the shut down challenge lol).
I believe I was supposed to spin a girl(douche knows my kino game is weak) I found a chick by the bar, opened her, she hooked, and outta nowhere I grabbed her hand and spun her. She got turned off by that since my spins are still kinda contrived since I still need kino experience(passed both the shut down, and the kino challenge lol)
2nd challenge Live forever- grab a dancing chick, spin her, and follow with a claw right after that. Live forever goes in and flawlessly does it(Damn that sucks).
2nd challenge Vicious wildfire- Use a double head opener on a hot 3 set. I go in and complete the challenge, I don't remember if I got shut down or not.
3rd challenge Live forever- Approach a hot 2 set and make them hold hands(or something along those lines) he really hesitates with that hot 2 set, and freezes up a couple of times but he goes in and gets the chicks to hold hands
3rd challenge Vicious wildfire- Approach a hot 2 set and make them switch drinks(I have no idea how in the hell om gonna be able to do this. my mind is completely blank and no ideas come to my head) I go in and semi hook, then I'm like h/o let me see something. I grab their drinks and give the oposite drink to each. they don't bite, and cross hands each grabbing their original drinks(Damn, I lose to Live forever again)

Comedy central- We finish the challenges and now its a free for all. We talk to Weekend at bernie's since he happens to work in a comedy club, we challenge him to do a keys to the VIP challenge(pretend you're a working comedian, and tell them a joke to try to make them laugh) He opens the biggest group and passes the challenge, lol everybody start saying some pretty retarded funny jokes. I learn shitloads about conversations in this set that lasted like 25 mins.

after the challenges we each went our separate ways, approaching who ever we pleased.


hot 5 set, wing assistance- I spot this very hot Asian woman. I freeze up, and for some reason I check her out creepy like(I usually don't do this but I sliped this time) she suddenly looks at me and catches me staring at her, and gives me somewhat dirty looks(I'm like oh crap I blew it) Next I see shes a part of a 5 set. Suddenly I say to Superman, watch me get blown out. I go in and hear them talking about sexual harrassment. Suddenly they stop talking and look at me. I make a joke about the sexual harrasment thing, they laugh. I say hi to the asian chick. she say Hi(in a very receptive tone. wtf wasn't expecting this at all) I say, well i'm going to sexually harrass you by saying you're really hot. her AWWW thank you so much, blah, blah, blah(again wtf?) we chit chat, but I don't know how to handle the whole group. Live forever steps in and wings me. we talk for a while, then the convo dies out and we lose em

Cute hb iso- The crew is gonne, its only me and Wolf howls left, I spot this cute chick, make eye contact with her. I say don't you love crowded places?(sarcastically) she responds well, I grab her and dance with her alittle bit, then we chit chat, I make her guess my nationality(credit to Superman) its on. Wolf shows up and tells me to Iso. I tell her we should sit so we can talk some more. we sit on the couch. I half ass palm read her, and we hold hands. We talk some more, my arm is around her, and our cheeks are touching. I start getting horney as hell. we talk for a while, I'm getting nervous about going for the makeout. My phone is dead, and I don't know my #(new phone) we pull a bunch of stunts to exchange numbers. we talk some more, she kisses me in the cheeks like 3 times. I go in for the makeout, and she playfully denies me. I say sry you're just too cute. I qualify her some more, we talk alittle more and I try again, we touch lips and she denies me after that and says "you're so bad" its clear she wants to make out but doesn't wanna feel like a slut. I don't know how to overcome this in the end. so after some more chatting I just bounce.

overall lessons

ISO, ISO, ISO. its sooo fucking important. It made all the difference, I always forget to do it, and I noticed the clear difference when you iso. Kino is much much, easier, and so is comfort building, and its compliance it self.

Preassure release- this leasson is actually from daygame, but haven't gotten to writte those frs yet, its very important so I don't wanna forget. During daygame, when you go direct what tends to happen is theres way too much preassure on the chick and even if she likes you, it usually ends up in a shut down, but If you go direct, and right after that you release the tension by changing the subject, or saying something funny, then the preassure is gone and they still know why you're talking to them so you don't have to be creepy about your intentions

Revealed sticking points

-I rarely bounce chicks or iso.
-When I go for the kiss I do it half assed so instead of getting the makeout, I end up getting just a peck. gotta go all out
-Gotta learn more about current events and pop culture. its really fucking up my conversational game
-I have to define my qualifiers better, and make them more solid
-sometimes my reactions come across fake, need to work on my congruence with emotional circutry
-LOL I have ADD sometimes when I'm in set. gotta learn to listen better

Saturday, January 16, 2010

FRs 37-45 Internalization!

Btw this is an estimate of frs I didn't post here. This was by far the weirdest plateau I've gone through because it felt like I was progressing and regressing at the same time. The whole month of December started with dissaster, and it got worse.

Regression- Suddenly everything I believed I had all ready overcomed, had vanished before me. Keep in mind my social fear was pretty close to none existant, I was all ready getting makeouts, and my sets were finally hooking. Suddenly I start getting consistent blow outs, I become introverted again, and my AA shoots to the sky! Back to square 1, while at the same time I have a group to lead. Its almost as if that hero the crew saw in me was replaced by a chode. Like a dream I suddenly wake up from!

The drift- Live forever strives to keep the flame alive! I chode and he has a hard time training me. Everything I've been preaching about life for years is being challenged. Persevearance, will power, faith, etc. Become more of a challenge each day. But as I look around me, everyone seems to be in the same situation. The Suicide crew begins to drift appart. We decide to put the crew on hold for the whole month. We go our separate ways, and sarge how ever we can when ever we can with no specific goals.

Battle preparation- Going out gets harder and harder, but at the same time, something strange starts happening within me. My outter game gets worse and worse while my feelings seem to slightly change every night I go out. It's very hard to explain but I start noticing little things that I didn't seem to notice before. My attitude begins to change. What ever it is, its preparing me for whats about to come

Facing my past- Its time to go back to Jersey for a long period.
This is a long and very complex story but basically, In my Jersey stay, everything that has hunted me in the past, comes back to test me in every way possible. But there's 1 particular test that keeps coming at different stages of my life, and it comes back again! I pass many tests that I had previously failed, but I still fail the main one. How ever this time, I got closer to passing it than ever. I get depressed in Jersey, and extremely moody. I have no clue whats happening within me. I begin to attack everyone around me including my family. As much of an asshole that I'm being, people still seem to flock to me, and give a respect I've never gotten before. Everyone starts making plans around me. people everywhere treat me like a celebrity. the same people that have been dickheads to me in the past! at first I think its only because They havent seen me in a while, but as I speak to them, I notice they all see me as their hope. To this day I still have no clue why.

Internalization- The Jersey travel was full of emotional instability but I later realized it was due to the fact that my field time has truly helped me form my identity, which is why things that didn't seem to matter before, this time, they did. I come back to DC and the crew is back in action. I'm very nervous about my first field experience back in DC. But as I see women walking, I start noticing huge change in me. Every set begins to hook, and things start going really well once again, but this time around, its very different from the past aparent improvements. I suddenly start understanding women better. I have no idea what it is but there seems to be a very strange power within me. everything sworta begins to really make sense, and all tha instability vanishes.
After much analyzing, I noticed I had internalized many things but the main thing that changed right before my eyes was my belief system. I had such a negative belief system, and out of the blue it vanished. And this new belief system serves me well now.