Monday, November 30, 2009

FR 30 Hope and Despair. The dream lives on!

Jersey travels- You guys were probably wandering why I suddenly dissapeared again. I went to visit my family in NJ. I had time to reflect over somethings, but while I was there, There was only a sargable 3set. My town is small and everyone is dead inside. they all saw me as their one hope, and magic bullet. this put tremendous preassure on me even though I kept telling my self I was doing this for my self. I blew the 3set, and all my other social interactions were with people from my past such as ex highschool students. I found most of the guys, and girls that used to hate me. the guys changed tremendously and apologised for all they did to me in the past. most of the girls kept staring at me(I think they were impressed by the new me) but they didn't talk to me. few of them were bitches like they always have been. I chatted with the guys, and for some reason I was no longer my usual self. once again I was afraid of fucking up, and the one girl I talked to(also from highschool) told me she was single without me even asking. But I was so afraid of fucking up that I just said "look shes cute and single, which means you guys can hit on her(implying my friends)" she laughed and thanked me. I know she gave the hint but it seemed that I had reverted back to my introverted self again for the time there. It was such a fucked up feeling.

My 1st night in DC- I came back to DC and was in no mood for sarging. I went out with the Suicide crew but I was acting so weird I couldn't even explain to my self what was going on. I guess it's this time of the year, and I'm still alone. Also I sometimes get frustrated when I see all these drunk women, and people who carry a lifestyle thats opposite to what I want. I'm aware that this is part of the process and the bigger picture, but sometimes it throws me off alittlebit.

Despair- As soon as I arrived to Lucky bar, Live forever all ready had missions for me. I was feeling scared, but more than scared, I was feeling this emptiness and dissapointment, as I watched all these people with low moral values, and standards, while at the same time I was feeling this thing I can't explain as I saw other beautiful couples, and I couldn't shake it off. With the help of the suicide crew I forced my self to approach and attempt the spin maneuver as directed by Live forever(Live forever is my kino/Voice projection coach) My state was so far off, and my attitude so negative that I was getting shut down left and right.

Hope- The crew split up, and Southern style and I met with kim. There were sets, and the night was alive but I was totally gone, and although my body was there, there was no way for anyone to bring me back. Southern style pulled me to the side and talked to me. Suddenly after a complete state break, Live forever shows up out of nowhere, grabs my arm and takes me to a 3 set. It was then that I remembered the reason why I even joined the comunity, and to refresh the dreams in my head.

Spinning the night away- although Live forever showed an amazing display of game, by spinning like 15 chicks, and creating some massive attraction, and kino. I still couldn't do it successfully. I attemped the spin with the 3 set he pointed out, but my state was horrible, and I got shut down. Then he picked another girl. she opened.(I was glad I was able to even hook something with this fucked up state) I spun her, and danced her around, and did different dance moves. then I put her on my arms and kissed her. I spun her some more, and her friend cockblocked me. It was my 1st hooked set for the night. The night was almost over, and Live forever commanded that I do at least 1 more spin to call it a night. I did, and it hooked. After talking to her and building rapport, she turned out to be a psycho, so I ejected.

The dream lives on- Although I couldn't recover my state that whole night, I was able to remember my life long dreams, and what I set out to do. While in the car, I could still taste the grape flavor lip gloss from that girl's mouth, I was also watching Live forever, as he cheered me on, and was genuinely interested in my success. I was also remembering Southern style's words. Pondering all this over my head was all the proof I needed to know that I will achieve my dreams. Btw guys, I hate writting all this emo shit, It would be easier for me to just writte facts, and leave all this out, but I feel it necesary to be 100% honest and open about my struggles, in order for me to keep a record, and truly learn from my field experiences. I also want this to be a guide to the newbies when I get really good. thank you guys for your support

Monday, November 23, 2009

FR 29 The new risen star in Suicide crew!

2 week focus(5 day weeks)
- Conversation skills, Sexual fear, Smile

Milestone
being able to stay in sets long, Having the ability to build common rapport with people in general, Being comfortable enough touching women and setting sexual frames to have consistant makeout attempts, Having a compelling nonthreatening smile.

Daily challenge
30+ minutes of conversation practice/study
5+ conversations of atleast 1 minute with random women
5+ minutes smile practice
2+ claws(Wrapping my arm around girls necks)

Suicide crew meet up- Every Suicide crew member skipped everything and left everything to come to the meet up. although we werent going to discuss game much this was a very important meeting. it represented the unity and acomplishments of the suicide crew. Gotta admit I cheated alittle bit and drank, but today wasn't about game. Still the PUA spirit wasn't gonna let us stay home all day.

The new risen star- I'm talking about our newest Suicice crew member Zafer. When I first met him, he seemed very nice, but I also sensed weakness in him. He wasn't even able to approach indirectly. He soon proved me wrong. He started making some very quick progress. not only was he able to handle the fire we put him through, but he turned out to be a great support to the Suicide team. Because he's so mature he is able to guide and the crew when we're being boneheads, also because he is so humble, he is able to learn from everyone, and very quickly, and his dedication allows him to excecute what we teach him extremely well.

New weapon in action- We met Sonic in clarendon, Live forever started opening and hooking some very hard sets. I on the other hand wasn't able to hook sets. Sonic also started hooking pretty much every set. Since I wasn't able to hook any set I decided to use my new weapon.(the one I used in my last FR) I stopped approaching and started focusing on the music. I quickly gained some high energy and began opening chicks with the dancing opener. They immediately hooked pretty well and was able to grind a couple sets. I still knew how ever that this not being able to hook sets through just talking was a big issue. Live forever and Sonic started giving me some pointers and advice. We venue bounced after that.

Target practice

Live forever's advice- Use your diaphram, and talk very loud, you should be able to interrupt any conversation with your tonBoldality.
excercise- Open that 2 set with I gotta tell you a crazy story, and then don't say anything after that, see if they keep talking.
Result- They stopped and after like 5 seconds they were like well? whats the story? I said "Oh theres no story I just wanted to check your attention span" I ejected LOL they were pissed.

Sonic's advice- Always have something to say even if its not interesting, and make it sound exciting with your tonality, Use body rocking until they're fully invested in you, Talk about subjects that interest you.
excercise- open that mixed 3 set and try to captivate them
result- I had no idea what to open with so I used the I don't mean to be rude but she is very beautiful opener. It hooked for a little while but then the same thing happened.

Makeout mania- Through out the rest of the night I still wasn't able to hook any sets, but these guys gave me some awesome advice. I kept practicing, until I saw this not so cute asian chick(like a 6), and walking towards me and I semi used the dancing opener, I wasn't gonna game her but I figured she'd make good target practice. She hooked and I isolated her, then I used my makeout techniques from the last FR. We madeout for a while, then the Suicide crew met up and I found out Zafer had also had a makeout with this cute chick, following Live forever's advice.

Highlights(Leassons learned will be in parenthesis like this)

Cute asian 8.5 metro pregame- She was waiting for the metro I sat next to her, And opened her, I used my identity to build rapport(my metro game is getting super tight) she hooked very hard but for some reason I didn't go for the number. It wasn't fear so IDK what it was, it was weird. After I got up and went in the train, she turned her head and kept looking at me(Using your identity is the most powerful way to build rapport because it's something you passionately believe in)

HB7 Cockblocking contest- She opened me with sorry(her ciggarrete was near me) after like 5 seconds I'm like ahhh(being sarcastic) she laughs. we chat, once again I use my identity and she hooks very hard. I iso her, then suddenly like 5 random friends start showing up one at a time with the sole intention of cockblocking me. I fight them off pretty well, then she is so hooked she won't allow them to pull her away, and she number closes me, and threatens me to call If I don't call her(once again, Identity is the most powerful form of rapport building)

Revealed sticking points

Voice projection
The way I open
Conversational skills
body rocking

Total claws- 3
makeout attempts- 1
makeouts- 1
Total 1+ min. conversations- 4
total conversation practice- 0 mins
total smile practice- 0 mins

BTW to those of you who read this, I thank you very much. this damn report took me literally like 5 hourse, cuz bad shit kept happening every time I was finished and I would have to start over again.

FR 28 A taste of victory! breaking new limits!

2 week focus(5 day weeks)
- Conversation skills, Sexual fear, Smile

Milestone
being able to stay in sets long, Having the ability to build common rapport with people in general, Being comfortable enough touching women and setting sexual frames to have consistant makeout attempts, Having a compelling nonthreatening smile.
Bold
Daily challenge
30+ minutes of conversation practice/study
5+ conversations of atleast 1 minute with random women
5+ minutes smile practice
2+ claws(Wrapping my arm around girls necks)

Believing is seeing- So everybody says seeing is believing, but What I learned is that believing in something, without seeing it, leads to ultimately seeing it. So far I've had this strong belief in what I want. I've struggled in Jersey for a long time, without a single result. I've always wanted to have awesome friends, and to be good with chicks. I've always wanted to open up to people. All these dreams I've had seemed out of reach, and now that I'm watching them unfold before me, I get this amazing feeling I can't descrive to you.

Lucky bar breakthrough- It was the typical Suicide crew, but I felt different than usual. I was "in the moment" Suddenly I no longer had to worry about what to say how to open. Before getting in that state, I had all ready opened but they weren't going well. I recollected my self, closed my eyes and got in tune with the music. Before I knew it I had massive energy. In my last FR I managed to kino even though, none of them were attracted to me. This intenalized in my head that kino wasn't a big deal. I was able to escalate every set after that with ease, I got my 1st makeout since I've been here, and what would have been my 2nd, but her friend pulled her away. Suddenly interactions seemed easy and predictable. I was dazzled by my new found power.

Remaking new friends- after this whole wealth of knowledge I had aquired at lucky bar, I met up with David, Wolf howls, Mr B, Julian and Ari. Although there were some difference among some PUAs, Everyone has been very nice to me, I've learned alot from my Suicide crew and all these guys. They took me in and gave me advice on various subjects. They also told me some of their adventures. although I had previously met these guys, I really got to know them better this time.

Highlights(leassons learned will be in parenthesis like this)

HB7 makeout- I came in high energy and started dancing with her. I moved her around and spun her all over the place. Then I said, "omg I love your energy, ready to get dizzy?" and started spining her really fast. I hughed her, and looked her in the eye, then I gave her a little peck. she complied, so I went in for the makeout. after making out, she responded "you're so bad, you're gonna get me in trouble with my boss" we made out again, then she said "wait my boss is near" I should have isolated to somewhere else but I forgot to do it, then I said, have you ever tried the rico suave kiss(Live forever's line) I put her on my arms and made out with her again.(a great way to get the makeout is to start invading her space, if she lets you, go for the makeout)

HB7.5 almost makeout/ cockblock battle- I tried this energy charged opener again, samething happened. she then asked me if I knew salsa(I totally suck at dancing so you guys can pull it off) I thaught her some very basic moves, suddenly I spot the cockblock friend's hand trying to grab her, I turn my target and block the cockblock lol with my back. After alittle the cockblock seems to have disapeared. I dance her a little more, and just when we're about to makeout, the cockblocking hand of doom pulls her seconds before the makeout.(Getting hyped up about the music even if it sucks, is a great way to get in state, once in state, barge right in and lead the girl)

I opened every other set in a similar way and they went similarly

Overall leassons learned

Invading her space- after hooking a set, get closer and closer to her face, or the side of her face as you're building rapport, If she doesnBold't back down most likely she will go for the makeout so go for it, not to mention it will come off as spontaneous, and not planned out. chances are it wont be a full blown out makeout since she'll prolly feel uneasy, if its just a kiss, fall back, chat some more, and go for the makeout.

dancing opener- awesome opener, scream and sing along if you know the lyrycs. come into a set while dancing(do NOT creep up from behing them, don't come in half assed) make eye contact with target while smiling and grab her hand and spin her around. everytime I've done this with energy it hooks, even in big sets

Revealed sticking points

Creeper- Considering I can rarely hook a set during nightgame through talking, I have to work on how I actually open since I tend to creep them out sometimes, this is even when I'm spontaneous about approaching.

Hooking sets/Voice projection- I need to learn to speak from my dyaphram cuz I have a hard time talking loud or and usually have to lean in(you can lean in after hooking sets, but it looks really creepy while opening)

Conversation during night game- After opening, I have a hard time sparking up exciting conversation, and I either go in interview mode or say value taking stuff

Total claws- 3
makeout attempts- 1
makeouts- 1
Total 1+ min. conversations- 5
total conversation practice- 28 mins
total smile practice- 0 mins

Saturday, November 21, 2009

FR 27 Dancefloor madness

2 week focus(5 day weeks)
- Conversation skills, Sexual fear, Smile

Milestone
being able to stay in sets long, Having the ability to build common rapport with people in general, Being comfortable enough touching women and setting sexual frames to have consistant makeout attempts, Having a compelling nonthreatening smile.

Daily challenge
30+ minutes of conversation practice/study
5+ conversations of atleast 1 minute with random women
5+ minutes smile practice
2+ claws(Wrapping my arm around girls necks)

Today I met up with Jdubbs and I found Wolf howls, and color. Theres nothing too special about this report but it was very educational. It was raining like crazy outside so we came to midtown all wet. Although no set went anywhere, I approached the hottest sets in the venue. they all reacted friendly but not attracted. This completely reassured in my mind that women in general are nice. I had a big kino fear since I was all wet and stinky. I managed to half assedly claw 1 girl. Jdubbs was very straight up and bold, and although I didn't completely agree with everything he said, I really apreaciated all of his advice and willingness to help me.

Total claws- 1
Total 1+ min. conversations- 5
total conversation practice- 0 mins
total smile practice- 5mins

Thursday, November 19, 2009

FR 26 Burning the ships!

2 week focus(5 day weeks)
- Conversation skills, Sexual fear, Smile

Milestone

being able to stay in sets long, Having the ability to build common rapport with people in general, Being comfortable enough touching women and setting sexual frames to have consistant makeout attempts, Having a compelling nonthreatening smile.

Daily challenge

30+ minutes of conversation practice/study
5+ conversations of atleast 1 minute with random women
5+ minutes smile practice
2+ claws(Wrapping my arm around girls necks)

This being my second day with my new focus and having just recovered, I was anxious to find out weather I really did kill the state breaks or weather this was just a big fluke. I had spent almost a whole day exchanging challenges and ideas with Southern style. We truly placed everything on the table, and were ready to put everything on the line. We met up with Superman, Jdubbs, and Fiddemus. While I've been very consistent approaching, my success rate wasn't very good. I knew it was because I didn't believe in my self or my material. Superman being very good at state control coached me on how to let my self go in order to believe in my self.

Big epyphany- While I kept hearing this, and pondering it in my head, it made sense but I couldn't apply it realisticly. Finally after a few approaches attempting this theory, while waiting in line to have lunch it finally hit me. I did my 1st real successful approach while waiting in line. Suddenly I remembered a true story in think and grow rich, about an army captain who arrived to the enemy land in which the enemy outnumbered his men 3 to 1, and they had superior weapons, yet the captain's first order was to burn the ships so they couldn't get out of there alive unless they won. This ultimately gave them the win.

Burning my ship- All this time I had done the ballsiest approaches you could imagine, but it seemed like there was something that I couldn't let go of while approaching. this was ultimately destroying my success. I decided to put everything on the line. I stopped thinking. I was willing to pay for the lack of preparation. I decided to have absolute belief in my self and my ability to pull through. I opened with something stupid, with ABSOLUTE faith I was going to be able to do this. Like magic this conversation seemed totally different from even my past heroic successes. It was emotinally charged. The approaches I did later weren't many but they were very powerful and undescribably amazing to both my target and I. For the 1st times in a long while I was able to connect with someone on such a deep level.

Night life ESL- I went home with this new found power and got ready, I worked on my looks, took the time to straighten my hair, Ironed my clothes and the works. Pumped my self up and met the crew. There were very few sets but I still opened and everything I opened was golden. things slowed down and I was able to think clear as water.

Total claws- 2
Total 1+ min. conversations- 8
total conversation practice- 0 mins
total smile practice- 5mins

Highlights(leassons learned will be in parenthesis like this)

HB asian 8.5 moving- This girl in my eyes was stunning and I was dying to talk to her. Since she seemed to be totally my type, my AA kicked, but I went with my new found power and told her I absolutely loved her style. My state was so powerful that she completely opened up. All I could think of was how much I liked this girl and loved talking to her. We talked for a long time, and I had a very solid # close(Emotions are contagious, women totally feel what we feel, and their reactions tend to be a reflection of our beliefs)

HB 8 blow out- I approach this moving target.
Vicious- "hey"
HB bitch- "what do you want(mean tone)"
Vicious- I think you're absolutely gorgeous
HB bitch- I'm not interested, so stop talking to me(Very rude tone)
Vicious- Wow(sarcastic) LOL are you for real?(burlesque tone) LOL you go and make sure you have a good day(laughing at her)truth is I felt absolutely nothing but disgust. I felt no pain whatsoever, and in fact I felt pity for her(Once you approach enough, you build your true belief system, and you realize you're doing THEM a favor by approaching. and They're the fuck ups, not us PUAs)

Metro HB7- I was on my way home and I spotted this girl waiting on the metro. I cold read her state. We chatted about metro, and had another deep conversation. she was cute, and cool, but not my type so even though she made it very obvious, I still didn't go for the number(When you start getting picky, its a good sign that you're growing as a PUA)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

FR 25 Vicious' Victory over state breaks!

2 week focus(5 day weeks)
- Conversation skills, Sexual fear, Smile

Milestone
being able to stay in sets long, Having the ability to build common rapport with people in general, Being comfortable enough touching women and setting sexual frames to have consistant makeout attempts, Having a compelling nonthreatening smile.

Daily challenge
30+ minutes of conversation practice/study
5+ conversations of atleast 1 minute with random women
5+ minutes smile practice
2+ claws(Wrapping my arm around girls necks)

Rules
Claws will be residual since my availability to do night game is uncertain1 minute conversations will be recidual since my conversational skills need work I can't always pull them off.
The week starts mondays, It ends sundays

This fr is from yesterday so its not exactly fresh but I'll give it a go.
Ok after taking some time off and pondering things etc, I figured out how to really get past my state breaks and came back to the game much stronger and this time with a air of stability and maturity. I had done very little day game and was still shaky about my state breaks, and bummed out about not completing my day. I forgot my phone at home so couldn't go anywhere. By the time I arrived it was almost 12(they close the metro at 12) Southern style called me and told me they were at MC Faddens. This was my 1 chance to make the entire day up. He assured my ride back so I ran to the station. Had to take a bus and run for a good 30 mins. I was stinky sweaty and agitated.

Full recovery- I found Live forever, Southern style, Wolf howls, And Mike diamond. My sexual fear was kicking in, but once again I had the old air of confidence and nerves of steel I've been known for. With live forever's coaching I was able to claw 5 girls which would have been impossible to me a week ago.

Inner battle- The reason why I had so many state crashes is because I have the tendency of sticking to my plans, which collided with my immense fear of kinoing. Since I couldn't acomplish my missions, I was kicking my self. Combine that with my preassure of being an example to others, and fear of letting my friends down and your result is a massive state break. For once I couldn't practice what I preached.

How I won- I realized that I had forgotten my initial reason for doing this. Even though I ultemately wanna help other guys. I'm not here for tittles, or to impress anybody, and my friends don't like me cuz of my game. So weather I'm the best PUA or I suck, They'll still be there. They like me for who I am inside. Once I made all these realizations, and took a breather and identified the reasons for my state breaks, I learned how to let go of useless baggage and focus on the present. I closed my eyes and listened to the beat of the music, and thus was able to do 5 claws.

leassons learned
Things are only weird if you make them weird
Even girls who are unnatracted to you will let you kino them.
the only thing that can really beat fear is experience
the best way to recover from a state break is to give your self a minute and toss every thought, and feel the music or the moment. even if you have to close your eyes to do it
best way to combat state breaks is to find out whats causing them and create a strategy to attack the cause.

Total claws- 5
total 1 min conversations- 1
total convo practice time- 40 mins
total smile practice time- 0 mins

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

FR 24 My darker side!

It was a saturday I had planned for pretty much the whole week. Considering Live forever is quite the kino master, We decided he was going to work on my kino all day saturday. As you all know, lately I've had some serious state issues due to my excessive sexual fear. I was getting my self pumped up. Live forever was bussy and kinda unatentive due to his massive success lately(can't blaim the guy, gotta take the chances when they're there) so we got to lucky bar kinda late. Before I knew it, I had another state break down and started seriously choding out and fucking up. My aim for the night was to do 5 to 7 claws(this is when you out your arm around the girls neck and get really close to her)the most I could do was 1 claw and a half assed hugh. I must have done like 5 approaches total. After that we bounced to another venue since Live forever had to meet up a day 2 who turned out to be worth it. He got a BJ and introduced us to her friends. I kinda clicked with one of them but I was so out of state and fucked up in the head I let the interaction die.

MONDAY- I head out with superman. Gotta go to work and its kinda late. We spot an HB in a bookstore. Superman opens her and we start chatting her up. Superman has very good conversation skills. We insta date her and get her #. then I head to work.

My darker side- Lately I've had the most horrible breakdowns, and when I'm in these negative states, it fucks up my game so bad that I can't even approach, and if I do its in a terrible manner and it gets me imediate shutdowns. These state breakdowns are due to my Sexual fear which involves, kino, sexual subjects, or even getting close to some one which is why I can't even do day 2s. Everytime I must act and fail to act, it makes me remember my life long failure to get women, and it makes me lose hope. My issues have been laid out on the table, and its a hard challenge, but I'm taking measures and I wont give up till I defeat this.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

FR 21,22,23 Vicious returns! A new chapter in the book.

This is gonna be a compressed report of my latest adventures. My internet has been down so its been hard for me to post.

So as you all know, I was working very hard on defeating my fear, and was achieving some good results. everything was going well, but suddenly I hit a plateau, and couldn't seem to get past it. at that very same time, everything in my life started going absolutely horrible. Suddenly everyone everywhere I was going, was giving me shit and absolutely humiliating me. people at work started hating on me, I got sick, and just everything sucked. I decided to take a little break, and unclutter my mind. I kept going out but with less intensity, and the thing got so bad, I actually started breaking down, and completely choding out.

Suicide crews healing power- Prior to the comunity, I haven't really had many good friends, and I'm not used to people wanting me to succeed. My entire crew was there through it all. they stuck it out, motivated me, protected me, and completely put their hands in the fire for me. In addition to that, awesome guys, like Wolf howls, Dave, and Caveman Spent their time on me, instructed me, and lead me. Although I was still getting horrid results, and I was feeling empty and unnatractive, all these guys showed absolute faith in me. Surely enough little by little, I regained my stability, and things started getting better.

Breakthrough- After freezing up again, and hardly being able to approach, I started approaching, again. Peoples reactions started getting slightly better because I started believing I my self a little more. When I hit the clubs with the crew, they kept getting better and better results while mine seemed to be avearge. Thats when it hit me like a ton of bricks that I just had to amp up the energy and believe in my material more. I also finally was able to unmask another enemy that had controlled my whole life. It's called sexual fear. I was able to overcome social fear to great success but not sexual fear. My inability to kino, or even talk about sexual themes has been responsable 100% for the results I've been getting. Unmasking this was both very scary and very relieving, because now I can fight back, now that I know what I'm fighting against

Kino mastery/ great friendships- My sexual fear controlled me so much that it bled into my opening and I started getting some serious AA again. But due to the Suicide crew, I held in there, and Live forever turned out to be quite the Kino master. Don't believe me? read his recent FRs, hes been getting makeouts like crazy. Having him on my side started really paying off. Still all these days, I still couldn't get my self to kino. But just having such a solid guy in the crew gave me hope and relief.

The calm after the storm- After all these hellish days, I was able to extract some very valuable knowledge, and I was also able to gain a firm foundation and stability. It also gave me clarity of mind and made the proccess much simpler, as well as revealing most of my real sticking points. Now I have peace of mind, and focus. With such a great team on my side, you guys can soon expect some serious progress in my following FRs.

FRs- Since the info is not fresh in my head cuz its been a while, I'll give you a very basic roughdraft of each of the 3 FRs

FR 21 Beggining of the storm- In the previous report, I got slapped, and more and more of my all ready gamed targets continued to show up. Me worried about completely burning my rep in DC along with other issues, I get really sick and my mood is gloomy. I got out with superman and fidemus to foggy bottom. Frozen up by AA I do very little approaches, and get shut down horribly.

FR 22 The storm- I'm starting to recover from the flu. I catch up with the crew. to my amazement, They're all improving incredibly, while I seem to have regressed. We hit mcfaddens. I'm in my head and acting completely emo and chode. Suddenly this retard pushes me and I get pissed off. Call him out on it. He threatens me, I stand my ground, and he pushes my neck. I get infuriated, and Live forever absolutely pissed off, he stands up to him and all his other lying little bitch friends. Southern style holds me back and bouches for me. and Live forever. The bouncers show up and the chodes bitch friends start lying to get him to stay in the club. Live forever does not rest until theres justince, and hes willing to gladly get kicked out for me if he has to. after a long debate, they kick out the chode, but the manager talks shit to Live forever so we all decide to fucking leave and we bounce. By this time We're all out of state thanks to me. They're both amazing friends to me, we go to suckier venues, and Live forever bounces. Amping up social preassure- We go to lucky bar and all those venues. I'm completely negative and choding. I hate my self right now. Suddenly we find a bunch of comunity members. among them, Dave, Wolf howls, and caveman to name a few. Dave makes me completely fuck up sets on purpose so I could get over my social preassure. This day was very educational but very painful.

FR 23 New chapter in the Suicide crew book- all this time of absence in my part, Live forever has held the crew together and lead them amazingly. while Southen style has kept it fresh and continues to improve it by bringing new awesome guys to the Suicide crew. Amazed by what I see and with my new breakthroughs I come back.

Tougher challenges- My 1st venue is the pentagon city mall. and We agree that the Suicide crew needs to reach a new level. We find the first very tough challenge. A seated 2 set with what appears to be a mom and a daughter having lunch. Of course if I'm gonna preach something I better wailk the talk. I start shaking but I go for it. I pull the chair and sit next to the old lady and tell her I think her daughter is very beautiful. I chat them up and then the old lady cockblocks me. I can feel my confidence and drive coming back to me. Following after that, each member in the original crew steps up to complete challenges they've never been able to do. Live forever does a similar set to mine but with 4 hot women. it goes kinda well. Southern style approaches the hottest girl in the venue, and Superman gets assigned the narcist challenge(couldn't stay long enough to see if he completed it)

My 1st fight against my newfound enemy- we hit the night clubs, I begin approaching. this time their reactions are alittle better. Live forever is killing it. suddenly while walking I look next to me and Live forever is making out with this HB. He shortly makes out with another girl after that. Impressive. He shows me how he does it, and I just can't seem to pull it off. Thats when it was clearer than water to me. I had to believe in my material. clearly that was the biggest difference between him and me shortly after with his aid and instructions I was able to do my 1st real kino attempt to good success. I won't do highlights and will do a very brief list of overall leassons. My mind is not fresh and this is all ready a super long FR.

Overall leassons learned-
To get good, you must 1st destroy your current self and start out fresh by doing absolutely every chode thing you can do.
You have to trust your material no matter what
to spike up a conversation, teasing and smiling is absolutely crucialIts always better to overdo something than underdoing it.

New focus- Teasing/attracting, Kino, makeout

Saturday, November 7, 2009

FR 21 Bitter sweet victory!

2 week focus- Opening, transitioning, plowing

Milestone 2- consistent # solid # closes

Daily challenge
7+ approaches(Direct or plow)
6+ plows
2+ close attempts

Bitter sweet victory- This was by far my best/worst day since I started doing this.Best day- This was my best day for a number of reasons. 1st of all, I learned more about pick up, and my self today, than I have since I started doing this. I had the privilege of meeting many members of this comunity who I look up to and highliy admire. I got to go in field with them and even got to wing one of them. amazing guys like, mr B, Dave,Wolf howls, and many more awesome comunity members. I had the privilege and oportunity to meet and help other really cool comunity members. I watched with my very own eyes how my suicide crew members all broke barriers and watched how their game reached greater levels. I also believe this day was specially good for building an even stronger bond and friendship with our crew. Not to mention with the comunitys help I was able to take my game to the next level.

Worst day- My game was horrible today. ever since college park I got shut down by every single chick. later at the venues I had nothing but chode game. This day to me was emotionally destructive. I had the most embarrassing and humiliating moments I've had in a long time. I realized how weak Boldmy game was compared to all the other puas. It was very hard and it felt like I was going through hell.

Todays completion list
total approaches- 37(approximately)(32 directs)
plows 34
close attempts-1
closes-1

Highlights(leassons learned will be in parenthesis like this)

HB 8 bar- I walked up to her and opened her with the you're really cute line. she says to me "Oh I remember you" (I had all ready approached her that same night. It was sooo fucking embarrassing)(if unsure use a more neutral line like hey)

hb6 slap- Dave told me to use a really corny line on this chick so I went for it. she was super drunk, I really didn't feel like approaching her, but Dave is awesome and I couldn't miss this oportunity. She couldn't hear me no matter how loud I was cuz she was wasted. suddenly out of nowhere the bitch fucking slaps me in the face. I was pissed off and embarrassed but I managed to keep my cool. then he instructed I reopen her again. and I did. she actually still responded but she was sooo fucking wasted and I was so anoyed that I said "ugh you're wasted" and ejected(Believe it or not. shit like this helps destroy your ego which makes you much humbler and stronger)

3set hb9s- I oppened the hottest set in public bar. It was 2 chicks and a dude. the dude kinda disaproved of me but didn't really try to cock block me. I hooked with 1 of them and kinoed a little bit. then I ejected.(You can kino much more than you think in night environments. It takes the same material, and you practice the same stuff, so if your going to go through hell for this, might as well go for the hottest sets)

My 1st almost makeout- I was pushing Southern style to pull a chick away from a dude. he did, but to my surprise the douchebag set me up by saying I was really shy and wanted to talk to her lol. I had no choice but to game her. Live forever was determined to get me a makeout so he was on my ass about kinoing more. he even did a demo for me on this hot hired gun. I kinoed this chick much more and hughed her, and caresed her hair etc. but then I said I wanna kiss you(lol fucked it up I know) she said she didn't know me well enough. I said, well lets get to know each other better, but my comfort game was horrible. I attempted 3 times, and she kept saying the same thing, and I kept fucking up the comfort game until she said, I'll be back wait for me here. I knew this was her way of ejecting so I let her go.(kino makes all the diffence when it comes to increasing sexual tension)

Almost make out 2- as I'm walking back, I spot this tall hb. Shes with her bf but she still makes eye contact with me, and smiles. I pull her from the bf, and chat her up. again Following live forevers advice, I kino much more. And almost get a makeout but she starts mentioning her bf being there. I don't know how to handle that and decide not to go for it. as I'm saying bye to her she kisses me in the cheek.(The way to learn kino is like everything else. kino excessively, and get shut down till you find the perfect balance. It's better to over kino than to under kino)

4 set- I opened a 4 set. got their attention for a few seconds, then I went into chode interview mode, and lost the group(must tease and I need to work on my attraction material. with fun playful tone, you can get away with anything)

Metro pick up- On my way back home. I sit next to this chick. Chat her up. build comfort and # close her.(Day game and night game are very different)

Revealed advantages
Approaching machine.
decent opening.

Revealed stiching points
Kino very weak
need attraction material.
must spike up conversations
dancing

Friday, November 6, 2009

FR 20 A warrior's armor!

2 week focus- Opening, transitioning, plowing

Milestone 2- consistent # solid # closes

Daily challenge
7+ approaches(Direct or plow)
6+ plows
2+ close attempts

High quality problem- It seems I'm going to have to adjust my daily challenge according to my needs. Lately I've noticed its been getting harder and harder to meet the 7+ approaches a day. I havent had time, but even so, I knew there was something more to it than that. It wasn't AA because I really have no hang ups about approaching. today it finally hit me.

A warrior's armor- Superman talked about the game giving you presents when you remain active and loyal to it. This armor is mine. I somehow developed such a chill vibe when approaching, that people either naturally open me. or are very receptive when I open. Because AA is not bitting my ass any longer. when I do open, I have enough Intuition and conversation to stay in set much longer, with the added bonus of being able to easily build massive rapport, to the point that if I eject, they reopen me. Finally, since Rejection no longer affects me, I'm able to fly through shit tests like its nothing. These suicide missions are really worth the pain.

Metro approaches- Since I've had to catch up with my personal life lately, I've been runing late all these days, and today was the same. I had gotten off work and had a little over 1 hour to jump from stop to stop and find targets. there weren't many but I figured there were enough to complete the sets in no time, how ever, the 1st I approached lasted 30mins(approx) I thought it was only that one, but the rest went in a similar manner, I had to make my self eject in order to complete the quota.

Highlights-(leassons learned will be in parenthesis like this)

HB7.5 riding metro- As soon as I arrived to the station, there was a chick there, reading some kinda manual. I walked up to her and asked her, what is that. she was very receptive. It was a camera manual, I transitioned to taking pictures, to the moments in the pictures, to cold reads about her. I also had my camera so I showed her pics which made the conversation more interactive. I had no destination so we both got on the same metro. Oh btw while I was chatting with her, I recieved a long phone and stressful phone call from my boss, which I thought killed the set, but She waited patiently, and even reserved a seat next to her for me. We had an exciting conversation in the metro. When I 1st approached her, I wasn;t very attracted to her, but she was the most attractive there, but as I got to know her, I became much more attracted to her. Heres the bad news- after a while I went for the close. It went very well and solid, she was anxious to meet me again, cept for one problem. When she put the # on my phone, I closed the phone thinking the # was saved and lost the fucking number. ugh im still so pissed(Always give your self some time to make sure the # exchange actually goes through)

Mix 2 set drunk girl- There was a guy and a girl waiting on the train and since I didn't have choice of sets and I did have an extreme urgency I approached the girl indirectly. It escalated well. I acknowleged the dude, and even ignored the girl a little bit. The girl got interested in me, but I found out she had come from another state and was only visiting. We go on the metro, talked about all kinds of things, and I sat next to the chick. I don't think the dude was her bf because she was way too flirty after we chatted, and he was way too passive. As the set went on how ever, I smelled alcohol in her breath and noticed she was alittle tipsy. I didn't attempt to close since she lives far. I think she wanted me to close her but I just didn't want to.(Talking to many people even if they're not hbs or targets is a must for building fundamental conversational skills)

4 more targets- all the rest went on a similar fashion. I used my new staple opener which is cold reading their mood. They opened well and we transitioned easily into normal conversation. These girls how ever didn't really inspire my admiration much, but I did get to connect with them pretty well. (I'll say it again. the easiest way to build rapport is to find out what they're into, and bring up any knowlege you have on the subject)

Todays completion list
total approaches- 6(indirects)
plows 6
close attempts-1
closes-1